For you,

I know you will read this.

When I say I need time, I really do mean it.
When I mean I need to think, please do let me be alone.
Don't keep on asking me to talk, when I don't know how.

Why are you keep pushing me hard?
I can't breath with your style of care.
You know what? We've change.

You was a good listener. That's when I ready to share.
I was amazed by your thoughts or solution. Even only a word or a question from your text.
It wakes me. Clearly seen.
You let me find my own path, but walk me out when I'm lost.
I like the way you let me be.
and hold my hand when I do need one.

But.

Now, you keep judging me on my own thoughts.
Keep on asking me question that I can't answer. Like 21097548735651234153 times.
I'm miserable.
You told me you like me. Then you love me.
The feeling is complicated. You don't know how.

You told me you were hurt when I share my miss of my ex.
You say you are unhappy with my feeling towards another guy.
and then started to pinpoint me saying that I've changed.
Just because I don't give an answer.
Just because you can't wait.
How do you expect me to share things that you'll be hurt?

I didn't ask you to stay. Because I'm not qualified to.
I told you to appreciates things you have, never try to lose it.
I did mentioned 9087638475612417 that I don't want to get into relationship now.
At least, now I don't.
I don't want to hurt anyone. I really don't. Specially I'm not ready. Yet.
My heart still pain. It hurts. Deeply.
I do really need times to heal, a scar still appear after all.
Please do understand and be respect. I'll appreciates that.

I know you cares. I do.
But why can't you do it like you use to be?
Be a silencer. Grab my hand when I need one?

Please stop the unstoppable questioning section like I'm having a conference.
Every move I make, you ask. Like every single time.
EVERY.SINGLE.TIME.
I just want to shout my feeling for anything. everything. Simple as that.
Just believe it. I might just simply want to post at my shout box. That's all.
Don't query me again.
I will share when I want.

Sorry If I've hurt you or being rude. I just don't want to repeat.
I'm just trying to tell you that I'm tired. Give me a break.
Please.

我想，

只要笑一笑，就没什么大不了。

Hectic month

3 more weeks to go.
To end the horrible period in this year.
I hope.

A friend told me, that I've changed. Lifeless.
Rare to see my true smile. Fake.
I've no idea. But to agree.
Where am I.

Lost again?or grown up?
I believe that's another stage of my life.
A mask, is a new tool to carry along now. Is tiring.
and I'm tired.


When will be my another stop?
I'm hunger for a rest.

emo


ps: Happy B'day to 4star!! wtf, i know this is so unrelated but just want to wish wtf who cares!

Insomnia

makes me blog at this time.

*tick tock tick tock ticky tocker tickerie tockiiee*
wtf.

Sleepless night again.
I'm exhausted. Tired. Desperate, hunger of sleep.

Yet. I'm still awake.
Peak period. Professional class.
Fuggin fuggerin friggin sh*tlike.

Scam?

I don't know.

Been taking care of things that messed up.
Warn ya no good.
Lies, like spinning a wicked web.
You just end up all tangled in your own lies....and the more you twist,the tighter the trap.
Until you're trapped in a prison of you own making.

Sigh.

The summary wtf

1. I wanted to update my blog but I can't think of any topic.

2. I need a bluetooth adapter which function well!

3. Streamyx sucks time.

4. I really need a break. Envy of my friends can travelling around.

5. Peak period, sigh.

6. My ACCA class will start this coming tuesday. Yep, I'm a half-student again. weeee~~Erm, should I happy bout it?I don't know, but weee~whatever!

7. Money money money

8.Something is very wrong to my skin, having red little spot all over my body, and it looks horrible.

9. I got my laptop. yay~

10. I miss my cousin Connie sigh, she went KL for further study then UK after that >.<

11. I want to shop! I need clothssss seriously. closets seems so empty. Aah, money. wtf I can't survive with my pay.

12. My friends were busy dating. They avoiding me. So lonely wtf.

13. Restaurant City is my new favorite pass time game.

14. My external hardrive loaded tons of drama series but I always claim that I'm bored. wtf why am I like that.

15. Okay, decided to watch my series wtf.

16. Ciao wtf.

Grrr....pissed with the bluetooth connection.
Wanted to load the pictures from my phone but fail!!
Worse when I can't find my cable.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa