For you,

I know you will read this.

When I say I need time, I really do mean it.
When I mean I need to think, please do let me be alone.
Don't keep on asking me to talk, when I don't know how.

Why are you keep pushing me hard?
I can't breath with your style of care.
You know what? We've change.

You was a good listener. That's when I ready to share.
I was amazed by your thoughts or solution. Even only a word or a question from your text.
It wakes me. Clearly seen.
You let me find my own path, but walk me out when I'm lost.
I like the way you let me be.
and hold my hand when I do need one.

But.

Now, you keep judging me on my own thoughts.
Keep on asking me question that I can't answer. Like 21097548735651234153 times.
I'm miserable.
You told me you like me. Then you love me.
The feeling is complicated. You don't know how.

You told me you were hurt when I share my miss of my ex.
You say you are unhappy with my feeling towards another guy.
and then started to pinpoint me saying that I've changed.
Just because I don't give an answer.
Just because you can't wait.
How do you expect me to share things that you'll be hurt?

I didn't ask you to stay. Because I'm not qualified to.
I told you to appreciates things you have, never try to lose it.
I did mentioned 9087638475612417 that I don't want to get into relationship now.
At least, now I don't.
I don't want to hurt anyone. I really don't. Specially I'm not ready. Yet.
My heart still pain. It hurts. Deeply.
I do really need times to heal, a scar still appear after all.
Please do understand and be respect. I'll appreciates that.

I know you cares. I do.
But why can't you do it like you use to be?
Be a silencer. Grab my hand when I need one?

Please stop the unstoppable questioning section like I'm having a conference.
Every move I make, you ask. Like every single time.
EVERY.SINGLE.TIME.
I just want to shout my feeling for anything. everything. Simple as that.
Just believe it. I might just simply want to post at my shout box. That's all.
Don't query me again.
I will share when I want.

Sorry If I've hurt you or being rude. I just don't want to repeat.
I'm just trying to tell you that I'm tired. Give me a break.
Please.